All my life I dreamed of a fairy tale marriage, a knight in shining armor, sweeping me off my feet. I never dreamed or thought I would be living life as a single mother. I pictured my life very different than the way it is now, but I would not change it for anything. “The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps” (Proverbs 16:9).
My children were 17, 15 and 11 when I became a single parent. I was a stay-at-home mom for 15 years, and I had worked odd jobs for extra money to help with the bills. I came nowhere near to holding the financial responsibility for my family. When I became a single mom, I was making minimum wage as a receptionist at Calvary Chapel. I didn’t think I was going to make it early on in my singleness. My biggest fear was that we were going to be homeless, but as I clung to Jesus, He helped me through the tough times. Some days I had to put one foot in front of the other, while clinging to Him. I remember very clearly during my distress, when I was not able to even take a breath, the Lord asking me, “Do you trust Me?” I responded, “Yes, Lord, I do trust You, but this is so hard!”